Roller Coaster

So my video post on the side explains what happened next. To summarize, I was told I had a miscarriage around 5 weeks. They did an internal ultrasound and there was nothing there. Kevin and I were absolutely devastated. The roller coaster of emotions left us drained. I had cancelled my foot surgery once I found out I was pregnant, but after the miscarriage my OB told me to reschedule the surgery because she knew how important it was for me to fix my feet. The surgery was very involved and I was under anesthesia for 4 hours. I had to take pain meds and antibiotics for several days after.

Two weeks after the surgery I had my follow-up to my miscarriage. I took a pregnancy test at the beginning of the appointment which they make you do regardless. When the doctor walked in she told me that the test came back positive but that it must be that the hormones were still present. She then wanted to do another ultrasound. I wouldn't even look at the screen because it was making me upset. She then said words that would change my life forever......"So, do you still want to be a mom?" I couldn't even breathe....the thoughts running through my head were unbelievable....but what about the surgery, the pain meds???? Did I hurt my baby??? How did this happen??? She couldn't really give me much explanation. There is a chance that I was pregnant with twins and lost one of the babies. She swore that nothing I did has hurt the baby. It took so long for me to believe her. I left the appointment and called Kevin. He didn't come with me to the appointment, because I didn't think he needed to be there just to see me sad. I asked him if he was driving and to pull over. He of course had the same reaction.

So we went 19 days not knowing I was pregnant. We were very hesitant in telling people because of the scare. We had told our parents before the "miscarriage" and didn't want to put them through that again until we were in the clear. So we waited until I was 10 weeks to tell them. Ok.....so that was not quite a summery. Check out the video.....I will cherish it forever!